WHOLE

Whole as in
I carry light and
shadow, routes
reassured and
paths untraceable.
Forged in mystery,
chained in misery,
joy, grief, hope, loss
All thrumming and
thumping in the
deepest core.

I feel
middling and mad,
messy, tricked, had,
uncertain of what
shores I might reach
or watery death
I might meet on the
other end of system
unsustainable, para-
sympathetic shambles.

But still whole as in
agent of calm and
storm, will not be
quelled, will rock
many boats, will
shapeshift and
flow and dive deeper
than they know.

Hell, I may even be
the current on which
they are carried to
some sense
of the beyond and
the desire to grow.